My self discovery journey
I was living in Melbourne a couple of years ago and I was having a really hard time. I was in a shitty job where I was bullied by my boss, I was having issues with friends, Melbourne weather was getting to me and I just didn’t feel happy overall.
Then COVID came, in the beginning COVID didn’t scare me, I just brushed it off but as the weeks went on and as the rules got more and more strict, it just added to my anxiety and unhappiness. To top it off I had planned to move home but that didn’t go to plan due to all the travel restrictions, so i was stuck in Melbourne when all i wanted to do was leave.
I had 2 options allow my feelings and anxiety to consume me or use this time stuck at home to work on myself. I chose the latter.
I spent the next couple of months journaling everyday, I’d write journal prompts then answer the questions or I’d just write about how I was feeling. every time I felt a certain way or I got annoyed at my housemate I’d go to my room and I’d write about it and I’d think about why I felt that way.
I started seeing a naturopath which I can’t recommend enough, she helped me get my hormones back in check after coming off the pill. It was affecting my emotions more than I knew.
I took so much time for myself and learnt to be present. I did things that made me happy, that made my heart sing, that were calm and nurturing. It was things like going for walks, talking with my best friend, falling in love with red wine, taking long baths, doing puzzles, making clay, listening to podcasts and learning about going plastic free.
COVID was horrible, I understand that but to be able to have all that time just for me, it was incredible and I will forever be thankful for those months.
Once I moved home I felt free, I was so happy, I continued my journey and continued giving myself time to grow. It was shortly after I moved home that I told my friend about my idea. I knew I wanted to create something but I knew it would need her amazing art to come to life. She was all for it but I still didn't feel ready.
I went on different path and tried to become a crochet queen haha while I love crocheting, I knew it wouldn't be as valuable, too much time to create one piece. gosh I had been on so many craft journeys just trying to create something that I could one day make a career out of. sometimes I regret all that time I spent crocheting instead of pursuing this but I take it as the universe telling me I wasn't ready to create this just yet.
something made this dream stronger, It was when I created a dummy journal for a family member. When I did that, I thought yeah, this is it, this is what i'm meant to do.
But what really pushed me to start, was my sister and my partner. They believed in me so much and thought it was such an amazing idea. I was shocked and I thought ok ok let's do this and let's do this for real.
If not now, when right?
So a year later here we are. I spent a year saving, a year creating the journal and learning how to start a business. I cried a lot! but the desire to create something that could support my future and help others the way it helped me overtook any other feeling, so i kept pushing forward and I did it, It was hard but I did it.
If you have a dream go for it. no matter how long it takes just try, trust me it's worth it to try.
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All my love
Laura
xo